I’ve written 8 goals for 2020 which I am now working on breaking them down into smaller chunks to work on through out the year. I’m going to share my 8 goals here and will check in quarterly to share how they are going.
Part 1: My Faith Goals
Goal: Live more faithfully without fear while prioritizing time with God through prayer and scripture reading.
I’m afraid of a lot of things. Car accidents, fires, forgetting to pick up my kids, mass shootings, hell, mice, letting people down…..Sometimes I allow these fears to own me. I give them space in my brain to go to seed, spread and grow.
Over the years I have grown in my faith and come to understand that God is in control, and while it has not stopped my fear it has helped me quell them faster. This year I want to be more faithful with God and allow him to lead me to not letting the fear begin. It’s a hard thing, but I know with Jesus it can be done. And I think it starts with prayer.
I’m a dinner and bedtime pray-er. Both times are good to pray, but neither of them is my best time to pray. At dinner I want to eat and can see the food I’m about to eat so I want the prayer to be swift. At bedtime I’m tired and want to (or just do) fall asleep before I give prayer much time to gain speed. I love to pray when I can’t sleep, but it helps me sleep and I usually don’t get very far. I have come to understand I need a new prayer time.
What is that going to look like? I’m not sure yet. I’m going to try a few different things/times and see what works. I think prayer journaling is going to be a part of this new prayer time because I enjoy writing. I’ll let you know what works and what doesn’t.
This year I have embarked once again on reading the Bible all the way through. I’ve tried it a few ways a few times and I have never finished. The first time I didn’t have the discipline. The second time I was reading it chronologically and I got so bogged down with the Old Testament and how God was just out killing huge groups of people – and idea I couldn’t mesh with my loving Jesus – I couldn’t do it. I don’t know what is different this year, but something is. I’m starting at the beginning again, but I feel confident in finishing. I’m older now, and I think I am more able to understand the OT isn’t void of Jesus – he’s there the whole time. I’m more willing to seek him out and see the ways the whole Old Testament is leading to Jesus.
It’s important to me when I write my goals that faith comes first. Faith shapes my other goals for the year in a variety of ways, so I want to get this one right. I think I’m on the right track – get rid of fear, and with the space where fear used to be make space for prayer and scripture.